When you have...!!!

When you have...!!!
When you have a important meeting to attend
you get stuck in traffic jam...

When your Director calls you to his office
its always the time when you get a call from home that the baby is crying...


When you have a sudden holiday next day,
you get up in morning with migrane...

When you have visitors coming over
your fridge suddenly is all empty...

When you have to make that one important call
your mobile credit is suddenly low...

When you have a friend waiting and you are already late
You definetly will have a burst tyre...

When you have a train to catch
your work never finishes till you almost miss the train...

When some guest come over as surprise
that is the when you lazied to clean the house....its the dirtiest to the core...

When you are fooling around on phone with a friend
you miss that one important call...

When you pack and fly off finally
its then you realise the most important
thing you needed is left behind...

When you want India to win, Sachin is on the crease strong
that very momen we loose a wicket and most often a match too...

When Ghana wanted that golden penalty
by the great Asomah Gyan
he hit the goal post, lost the match, lost the hope as well...

When you have a weekend planned
the weather shining the mood swinging
you get up in the morning to see its raining whole day and becomes messy..messing the whole feeling..

When you visit an uncle's place
they praise you delicious ice-creams and cakes
you decide to make some for them in good will and love
your perfect cake burns,
your soft ice-cream milk sticks to the pan, leaving the sroma behind in ice-cream,
 in the family's minds and also in ur name..

When you mess certain thing
the people around you will always say they knew you will mess
but they never warn before...

Coincidences like these do happen too often,
Strange soon they will be termed as superstition ,
Modern day women have modern day problems,

Crisis factor are changing,
Panic attacks are the same..

Handling them is modern women achievements and
Tackling them is her trade mark,

Todays women are good at multi-tasking,
and situation like these makes them excellence at par...!!!

Mom's, Wife's, Bhabhi's, Sister's Daughter's, Bahu's, Friends..
have successfully moved ahead...

Superstition dose'nt hamper their moving spirit,
Challenge each day is mile-stone..
To achieve and move on...To another day...another mile-stone
is the formula of perfect life..
is a formula for that perfect smile...!!!


Neha Srivastava-Kulshrestha
Indian
Ghana
20/09/2010.

Want...!!!

Want

The feelings of rejection,
The thoughts of dejection,
The loneliness, the silent calm,
You being there and yet not listening,
You not trying to understand,
You shutting all doors leading to you,
You making yourself unapproachable,
You making each question of mine suicidal
You have not changed nor will change ever,
but, the way our relation changed makes it all despair,


Me wanting to be with you,
Me wanting to be held by you,
Me wanting to be touched by you,
Me wanting to be talked by you,
Me wanting to listen all that you say,
and all that you don't say,
Me wanting to be part of you
and you wanting to be there yet be unreachable,

The pain, the suffering is inevitable,
the tears are indespensable,
Yet the courage to move on has yet to build-up,
The courage to say you 'good-bye'
a final last time is yet to build-up...


Neha Srivastava-Kulshrestha
Indian
Ghana
3/09/09

चाँद की चांदनी !

चाँद की चांदनी !
चांदनी जा कर चाँद से कहो,
यूँ न इतराए इतना वह,
हमारे चाँद यहाँ नहीं है तो क्या,
इस तरह खिड़की में आकर हमें चिडाये ना वह /

अभी अगर इसी तरह बाहें फैलाये वोह खड़ा है,
तो सिर्फ इसलिए क्यूंकि हमने  मना नहीं किया है,
काले बदल जब गुस्से से फ़ैल जायेंगे आसमान में,
अपने होने का एहसास भी नहीं जता पायेगा वह /

हम तो वैसे ही दुखी हैं के 'ये'  नहीं है,
वैसे ही कमरे के रौशनी बंद किये बैठे हैं,
पर ऐ- चांदनी तुम्हारे चाँद की गुस्ताखी  तो देखो,
तुम्हे हमारे बिस्तर तक पहुंचा रहा है /

इतने निर्दयी तो ना बनो तुम लोग,
जो हमारे अकेलेपन पर मज़े कर रहे हो,
करवाचौथ जो आने वाली है उस दिन,
एक इसी चाँद ही की पूजा कर पाएंगे हमारा चाँद तो है ही नहीं यहाँ...

सूना कमरा, सूना घर, सूना मन है मेरा,
तन्हाई अँधेरी रातों में उनकी यादें बस हैं,
उन्हें तो इस तरह जगमगा कर हमसे दूर ना करो तुम,
यहाँ उनकी यादों में जीने दो तुम जाओ कहीं और हटकेले करो /

नेहा श्रीवास्तव-कुल्श्रेस्थ
भारतीय
घाना

Seconds -That Should'nt Matter

Seconds -That Should'nt Matter

The bad things happen & pass by,
Leaving behind the inumerable loss,
leaving the tears for the left ones
Leaving the memories of good times....

The scar remains, reminding each year,
of the horrid event , of the saddest moment,
Loss of parents, loss of a child,
Loss of the home once built with so much love and pride.

Loved ones gone leaving the cherished moment spent together,
Contemplating the loss, counting the worth,
the unseperable truth, unchangeable destiny,
you are to live now to show the world
of pain the pain you felt, to tell the tale of our once beautiful world...

Tsunami wiped it away, 9/11 smashed it away,
major stebacks takes seconds to happen,
Seconds of horror leaving life time to live in its effect
but all this tells us life has to move on...

There's always light after darkness,
there's always hope to live on..
we arent God to design destiny,
But by smashing in pain we can glorify the destined

Pain has its effects & there's no pain-killer
but to move in adding a chapter to one's life
is tough but to be taken decision,
Sorrows come and pass-by, times fades the pain,
You have memories to treasure
you have to decide what to remember

To remember- the merry time soent together,
making relationships, building home to live,
the togetherness the love, the laughter, the fun..

or

to remember- the black day, the 'second' that ended everything...
Do not sulk over destined 'second'
Instead live with happy treasured love-stories, love story of your relation with each one of your family,
Smiling or crying is one's self decision.....
But life has to move on....

REUNION

REUNION

The drought just ended,
Rains are flowing in,
Green pastures everywhere,
Life becoming to bloom,
Gloominess of the world ends,
With rain washing all sadness,
Darkness of uncertainty,
Cleared by the drops of rain,
Thoughts of world ending,
Erased by new flowers blooming,
The pain of being away
Fading with the joy I see around,
You will be mine in some time,
Soon we shall reunite for fun and smile,
Though this distance is painful,
But with each passing day,
It strengthens our love,
The more we are apart,
The more we become near,
These long days of loneliness,
Will make our life different,
Coz’ now we know the pain being away,
So we will cherish the moment of togetherness,
The joy of being with each other,
Can only be felt when being away,
You are more near me now,
Than you were when you were here,
I am more in your heart now,
Than, I was when we were together.

Neha Srivastava-Kulshrestha
Indian
Ghana

SMILE

                                                               
....... SMILE .....!!!
When my world was collapsing,
You came as a pillar,
When my dreams were fading,
You came as a light,
When my thoughts became blank,
You filled it in with color,
When my smile started dying,
You became the reason for me to rejoice,
When tears in my eyes overflowed,
You bought solace in them,
When I started feeling lonely,
You bought life back in me,
When my mood became emotional,
You made me practical,
When I missed terribly my people
You mimicked each one for me,
When darkness came near me,
You bought brightness with your presence,
When I felt it to be end of road,
You showed me new path, new goal,
When today I think of you,
So many emotions surge in my heart,
Love, Gratitude, Guide, Philosopher,
The best one though is last to come,
Coz’ I make you my dearest friend,
You given me so much I can never repay,
But promise I make, to be always gay,
Promise I make, that I will always smile
As in my Smile lies my dearest friends Smile.

Neha srivastava-Kulshrestha
Indian
Ghana

Janamashtami !!

Janamashtami...

1) Aayush all decked up for Thakur ji pose..

2) Modern Thakurji with Mobile...Music and Masti..

3) Haathi Ghoda Palki, Jai Kaniya Lal ki....

4) Ghana ka kanhaiya...Cute.and smiling...Kwame..

5) Birdie...Visit..

6) Satyanarayan Katha In Ghana....At home..Only humara parivar....

I hope you will enjoy some of the rare insights of our house...

Neha Srivastava-Kulshrestha
Indian
Ghana

इतना सा फर्क है !

इतना सा फर्क है !
जीवन के मझधार में ,
सोच के ताना बना में,
धरा प्रवाह बहते  विचारों में ,
उधेड़ बुन है इतनी, विचलित है मेरा मन |
***
तुम्हारे ख्यालों में तुम्हारे एहसास में,
दूर बैठी मैं निहार्थी हूँ आसमान को,
नीला निराकार  आकाश का नीला रंग,
गहरा है मेरे विचारों की तरह,
ख्यालों के अंत में खो जाती हूँ नींद  के आगोश में |
***
तुम्हारे साथ ही सोती हूँ उठती हूँ तुम्हारे साथ,
तुम नहीं होते पास मेरे, बस  इतना सा फर्क है |
***
आँख खुलते ही तुम्हारा मासूम मुस्कुराता चेहरा तो होता है,
पर उन्हें स्पर्श करने पर छूने का एहसास नहीं हो पाता , बस इतना सा फर्क है |
***
आंसू तो बहते हैं आँखों से, सर भी तुम्हारे सीने पर,
होने का एहसास तो है, पर मेरे सर को सहलाते तुम्हारे हाथो का,
स्पर्श महसूस नहीं होता, बस इतना सा फर्क है |
तुम हो कर भी नहीं हो, बस इतना सा फर्क है |
***
मेरे खोये चेहरे पर हंसी लाने की तुम्हारी चेष्ठा तो है ,
पर उस हंसी हो तुम्हारी नज़रें देख न पाएंगी,
बस इतना सा फर्क है |

इतना सा फर्क है ....

नेहा श्रीवास्तव-कुल्श्रेस्थ
भारतीय
घाना

-----तुम------

-----तुम------
रंगों की बहार का
बसंत  की फुहार का
शांत माहोल में संगीत का
मधुर आवाज़ के गाने का
सुरों  में झूमने का
सड़क पे इतराने का
लहरा के चलने का
मदहोशी में खोने का
सपनो में उड़ने का
यह मेरा मन  है
जो बेकाबू हो रहा है |

***

फूलों की सी सुन्दरता का
भौरों की सी चंचलता का
बच्चों  की सी निश्चलता का
नदी  की कल्कलाहट  का
चुडियों  की छह-चाहट  का
सतरंगी  इन्द्रधनुष  की रंगत  का
पहली  बारिश  की खुशबू  का
अँधेरे  में दिख  रहे  तारों  का
उगते  सूरज  की लालिमा  का
एहसास जितना  मधुर है
तुम्हारे  ख्यालों में मेरे  दिल  को
वही  सुकून  मिलता  है |
***
भरी  भीड़  में तुम्हारे  आते  ही
शोर  थम  सा  जाता  है
तुम सामने   आते  हो तो
मन  विचलित हो जाता  है, पर  तब  भी                       
इस  अशांत दिल को ठंडक तभी मिलती  है
जब नज़र तुमसे  टकराती  है
सारी  कायनात थम जाती है
तुम्हारे करीब आते ही
रोम-रोम  सिहर जाता  है
भावनाओं के इस दीवाने  सैलाब  को 
नाम  भी दे  तो  क्या  दे ?

***
बस  यही  आरज़ू  है मन  में
तुम आकर  थाम  लो  हमें
कसके  गले  लगा  कर             
उफंठे  तूफ़ान  को  बेकाबू होने  से  रोक  लो
मेरे  हाथों  की कंपकपी  को
अपने  हाथों  से  संभल  लो
अधखुले  अधरों  की सिहरन  को
अपने  में समेत  लो
प्यार  मुझे  इतना  करो
तुमसे  दूर  होने  का सारा  एहसास  मिटा   दो
तुम मेरे  हर  रूप  को  सजा -सँवार  के निखर  दो |

 नेहा श्रीवास्तव-कुल्श्रेस्थ
भारतीय
घाना

नन्ही कलि

hi,

…I wud like u to read one of my latest poem, based on my son’s hospitalization…almost 5 yrs back….life was normal till then….a tremor rocked our life, but now its smooth again….though baby is not ok..lekin life is…we have adjusted and accepted it as part of our life…




नन्ही कलि


नन्ही कलि जैसे संसार को देखने के लिए, अपना सर उठाती है,
ठीक वैसे ही मेरे नन्हे की आँखें थी टुक टुकी वाली खामोश, नींद की आगोश में/
***
नयी अनछुई कलि की लाली, सुर्ख रंग की, पहली बार संसार में आती है,
ठीक वैसे ही मेरे चुनमुन की कांति थी, बेदाग, चमकदार/
***
कलि का वह कवच में से निकलना, वह चटकदार, तेज वाली उसकी पंखुडियां,
ठीक वैसे ही थी मेरे ठाकुर की काया , सूर्य की किरण जैसी../
***
पर हमें नन्ही कलि से प्यार होता है..कुछ ज्यादा ही...,
काट के उसे सजा लेते हैं गमलों में
वैसे ही एक कलि को निहार रही हूँ मैं अस्पताल में,
कांच की दीवार के पीछे से ...मैं दोनों की मासूमियत पड़ रही हूँ,
***
NICU में मेरा बेटा सो रहा है,, नालियों के बीच, मशीनों के बीच खोया हुआ है,
कलि भी गमले में शायद सोच रही है, अपनी माँ के अंचल को तरस रही है,
उसका पौधा भी बहार शायद उसकी राह तक रहा है,
अगली कलि को खिलाने से डर रहा हो,
खोने का एहसास उसे भी है मुझे भी..खोना आसान है, असमंजस में जीना कठिन है........
***
नन्हा सा बिटउ पहले पहेल कैसा होता है मुझे मालूम नहीं,
एक दिन का बच्चा भूक से बिलकता कैसे शांत होता है माँ की गोद में मुझे मालूम नहीं,
एक हफ्ते के बेटे की छट्टी कैसे होती है, मुझे एहसास नहीं,
पहली बार पानी में नहलाना कैसा होता है मुझे पता नहीं...
***
पता है तो यह की मेरा ठाकुर NICU में सोया हुआ था,
एक महिना मैं ने उसे कांच से निहारा है,
साफ़, कीटाणु रहित कपडे पहेना के, माँ के नसीब होता है चौबीस घंटे में दो क्षण का सुकून ,
जब कांच की दीवार के अन्दर जाकर एहसास उसका ले पाती है, सांस उसकी महसूस कर पाती हैं,
हाथ पीछे बांधे, कैमरे की कैद में, मैं उसे देख लेती...
FACE- मास्क लगे होंटों से मैं उसे पुचकार के, आँखों की रौशनी धूमिल होती आसुंओं के पीछे से,
अपने बेटे को उसके पिता का और मेरा प्यार दे आती...
***
बस उस क्षण के लिए फिर हम दोनों,
कांच की दीवार के पीछे से, हर आने जाने वाले को अपना मासून दिखाते,
आसुंओं को मुस्कराहट के पीछे छिपाए खड़े रहते,
***
एक महीने का बेटा जब अपने हाथ में लिया, आज तक वोह वैसा ही नज़र आता है,
ना जाने श्रुश्ठी कैसे रच जाती है...कैसे रंगीन और रंग- हीन हो जाती है,
हर आते जाते दिन में हर समय कहीं न कहीं एक नन्ही कलि खिल जाती है.....



नेहा कुल्श्रेस्थ-श्रीवास्तव.
९:१५प्म,घाना,वेस्ट अफ्रीका

Cont From Hello World! We Have In India…

Cont From Hello World! We Have In India…


Cont From…
Hello World! We Have In India…

42. We have TAJ MAHAL.
43. We have Ajmer Shareef.
44. We have Tea Gardens producing world’s best tea.
45. We have forts like Lal Kila, Daultabad Fort, GOlconda Fort, Simhagadh fort…
46. We have stable government and stable economy.
47. We have biggest slum in world- Dharavi.
48. We have king of flowers Lotus and Roses
49. We have Peacocks
50. We have Lions and Tigers
51. We have forests, villages and metro cities
52. We have metro railways
53. We have Oil.
55. We have Culture, tradition and respect for elders and young-ones
56. We have Stock Market
57. We have free media, both print and electronic
58. We are highest consumer of telecommunication in world
59. We have SACHIN TENDULKAR, We have Saurav Ganguly..Sunil Gavaskar..
60. We had Maharani Gayathri Devi..world’s most beautiful Lady.
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U can Add up......in the list......PROUD TO BE AN INDIAN…

GARV SE KAHO HUM BHARTIYA HAIN !!!!!

NEHA SRIVASTAVA-KULSHRESTHA
PROUD TO BE AN INDIAN
GHANA

Hello world ! ! We have in India…

Hello world !! We have in India…
1. We have Snow Fall in India….Like West..
2. We have Desert in India…Like Sahara, Africa…
3. We have Hill Stations In India…Like…India..Haha..
4. We have Beaches in India..Like…Malaysia…Mauritius..
5. We have Shakira’s (House Boat) In INdia….Kashmir..
6. We have ‘Palace On Wheels” in India..
7. We have City with Lakes….Udaipur…
8. We have fresh water rivers…..Ganga, Godavari, Krishna..
9. We have “God’ Own Country”…Kerela
10. We have Largest Railways In world..
11. We have Highest Railway Station….Arakku..Vishakapatnam
12. We have Ajanta and Elora..IN Aurangabad…
13. We have Oldest Civilisation In world…Sites…In Mohan-jo-Daro…Harappa…
14. We have 12 Jyotirlinga….Swayambhu…
15. We have jwala Mandir in Himalaya..Where Fire is burning 24×7 from ages.
16. we have Ramayana, we have Bhagwad Gita..
17. We have Nuclear Power
18. We are world’s Largest Democracy…
19. We have Mahatma Gandhi..We have Dr. Baba Saheb Ambedkar, Lokmanya Tilak, Bhagat Singh, Subhash Chandra Bose..
20. We have The Borra Caves, in Araku valley (with hill ranges elevation varying from 800 m (2,624.7 ft) to 1,300 m (4,265.1 ft)). The Caves are basically Karstic limestone structures extending to a depth of 80 m (262.5 ft) (considered the deepest cave in India).
21. We have Nehru-Gandhi Parivar…
22. We have we the people on INDIA…..The best Mankind in the whole world……..
23. We have Sai Baba, Guru Nanak, Dyaneshwar, Eknath, Gautam Budha..
24. We have Festivals….for all days of the year…
25. The Number…”0″ was discovered in India…Aryabhatta…
26. The world’s oldest university was in India…Taxila…
27. The world’s Largest Diamond was found in India….”KOHINOOR”
28. Worlds Greatest FIghters were from India..Rani Laxmi Bai, Tatya Tope, Shivaji, Tipu Sultan….
29. The Legends in India had the Courage to refuse Nobel Prize…Rabidnranath Tagore.refused the medal in 1913…for Gitanjali…(If I am not Mistaken)…
31. We have Hot water Springs….
32. we have Tortoise Breeding Locations in Orissa..
33. We have place for the loved ones who died…Gaya….and a time of the year we remember them…Shradh…….
34. We have Teachers Day…Guru Poornima…and 5th september(both)
35. We have Brothers-Sister day…Rakhi and Bhaiya Dooj
36. We have Couples Day …KarvaChauth…Vat-savitri…
37. We have snake’s Day…Nag Panchmi..
38. We pray our Cows and Bulls on POLA…
39. We have day to celebrate Springg…Holi, Lohri, Gudi Padwa,Ugadi……and in all regions of country it is celebrated….
40. We LIVE IN SAME HOUSE WITH GRAND-PARENTS, PARENTS, UNCLES, AUNTIES, COUSINS…
41. WE HAVE THE LEGEND…THE AMITABH BACHCHAN….

NEHA SRIVASTAVA-KULSHRESTHA
INDIAN
Ghana

इंसान ही इंसान का अस्तित्व मिटा रहा है !

इंसान  ही इंसान का अस्तित्व मिटा रहा है !

हम इंसान ही इंसान का अस्तित्व मिटा रहे हैं
जानवरों को ख़तम करने में भी हम इंसान का साया है,
रेशम, सूती, खादी को हम ही मिटा रहे हैं,
शहद का स्वाद अब बच्चों को भाता नहीं है,
फलों को खाना नहीं बल्कि पीना उन्हें आता है,
घर में गरम खाना बनना अब दुर्लभ हो गया है,
रास्ते से आते-आते पार्सल लाना अब आम हो गया है,
टीवी,मोबाइल, कंप्यूटर, एफम  रेडियो
अब १६ घंटे ले लेते हैं,
बच्चों के लिए अब किताबों की जगह डिजिटल  नोटबुक ले रहे हैं,
इंसान के पास सोचने का समय ही नहीं है,
इंसान के लिए बनायीं चीज़ों का इंसान आज खुद गुलाम है |

खाली ज़मीन पर पेढ़  लगाना किसी को नहीं सुहाता,
ज़ू में जा कर जानवरों को दाना खिलाना १६ घंटों की गुलामी में मुमकिन हो नहीं पाता,
नाते रिश्तेदारों को घर बुलाना अब सालाना त्यौहार है,
दोस्तों से मिलना मिलाना अब फेसबुक और ईमेल पर निर्भर hai ,
पैदल चलना, शाम में चुडियों की चहचाहट सुनना अब सपना लगता है,
फिर भी इंसान खुद को पहले से ज्यादा व्यस्त समझता है |

 बच्चे घर के बहार नहीं अन्दर बढे हो रहे हैं,
उनकी लम्बाई भी रुक कर चौड़ाई में तब्दील हो रही है,
०-१० साल तक बच्चों का दिमाग बढता रहता है,
वोह जो खाते हैं, करते हैं जीवन भर याद रहता है,
चलना, हँसना, सोचना, खेलना, खाना वोह इसी उम्र में सीखते हैं,
विडम्बना यह है के इसी समय पर माँ का करियर और पापा का प्रोमोशन निर्भर है,
चाहे अनचाहे जाने अनजाने ही हम बच्चों के दिमाग में अंकुश लगा रहे हैं,
विडियो गेम के हवाले हम आने वाले भविष्य की अर्थी चड़ा रहे हैं,
हम इंसान ही इंसान का अस्तित्व मिटा रहे हैं,
हम इंसान ही इंसान का अस्तित्व मिटा रहे हैं |

नेहा श्रीवास्तव-कुल्श्रेस्थ
भारतीय
घाना
२०/०८/२०१०
























                          

                                                                       

किस काम के सपने जब इंसान का अस्तित्व ही खतरे में हो !

किस काम के “कपडे” जब इंसान का अस्तित्व ही खतरे में हो

.. Story behind the word “KAPDE”…. I wrote these lines when i was making my Son Aayush ready for going to office…and he was kicking his T-shirt..hard and away…then a whole poem came up….later in the evening my husband…said…i shud change “KAPDE” to something better…i dint wanted to as I will loose the Feel…but for pure reading pleasure i changed it to….”SAPNE”… SO HERE IT IS FOR YOU…….

किस काम के सपने जब इंसान का अस्तित्व ही खतरे में हो,

धरती पर बाड़ और सूखे का साया हो बदल फटना यदा कदा की नहीं रोज़ का नज़ारा हो,
जंगल की आग पे काबू पाना नामुमकिन हो रहा हो,
किस काम के सपने जब इंसान का अस्तित्व ही खतरे में हो,

मेक्सिको की खाड़ी  हो या चीन का तेल रिसाव,
समुन्द्र के तलव में तेल का मलबा हो,
जहाँ प्रदूषण का खतरा नहीं था वहां  आज जीवन ही खतरे में हो,
इस दुनिया की नीव जिसपर टिकी थी वोह नीव ही खतरे में हो,

किस काम के सपने जब इंसान का अस्तित्व ही खतरे में हो,

इस धरती पर जब भूकंप और ज्वालामुखी आम बात हो,
त्सुनामी जैसा अनसुना शब्द अब बच्चों  की किताबो में हो,
सूरज का प्रकोप  जब बीमारियाँ ला रहा हो,
जानवर तो दुर्लभ हो ही रहे थे,
इन्स्सन की अब बारी हो,
नदियों का सूख जाना अब डरावना सपना नहीं आने वाले कल की सच्चाई हो,
आने वाली पीढ़ी के लिए धरती का ठिकाना न हो,
किस काम के सपने जब इंसान का अस्तित्व ही खतरे में हो,

किस काम के सपने जब इंसान का अस्तित्व ही खतरे में हो,

नेहा श्रीवास्तव-कुल्श्रेस्थ
भारतीय
घाना
२०/०८/२०१० 

My Son Aayush!!!

My Son!!! Aayush……
Life started, said “Hi”,
Life moved, Said “Don’t Cry”
I moved with life
Grew each day..saying come lets “Live”

When I talk to him..he smiles
When I say him he is cute..he smiles
When I say him good morning..he smiles…
As he cant’s talk….he smiles..

He has different cries for all occasions,
He cries like a bird with beak in front when he is hurt or in pain,
He cries like a lion when about to choke, full of voice and can call whole city by his side,
He cries like a humm……when he wants my attention and
He cries with tears when he is afraid…of high pitched sounds..

By his sounds, cries and smile I can make what is happening when…..
When he will vomit, when an ear pain, leg pain or just.,,needs me for tender care..as he can’t talk..the only way he expresses is cry and smile..
He don’t know me as his mom..he knows me as I am someone..he knows his father is someone..but beyond that he don’t know..who is who and who is what…life is different with a baby like him..but life is experience worth living with a son like him..

He likes ice-cream..but pneumonia is a serious threat,
Choking is companion and my only problem,
So I give him Ice-less-cream..i let the ice melt and give him the cream..
I guess he likes vanilla flavoured…ice-less-cream…as then he smiles..

I talk about smile as it’s the only expression he does..
Smile is the only thing he can do..
But he is generous in sharing it with us..
My tiredness drains away when he smiles..
All pain go away and I too smile..

When I look in his eyes..he gazes in mine..and beyond..
I don’t know what all and till where he sees..
What I know though is HE CAN NOT SEE...
Me, my eyes, my smile..anything..but…
He has lovely eyes…beautiful, big and expressive..

With his -9 spects he can see me moving..
As a shadow, as a object…but ..so what..
I see him and he sees me..beyond my eyes…maybe
In my heart too he can see…..who knows
I talk to him..and he listens..does he understand???
I know not..as Berra test was there to test he can hear..
No test to prove he understands..but I talk..
I recite Ramayana for him, Panchtatra for him..
He listens and knows his father’s whistle..
He care for it and smiles each time..
His father is special to him..mom’s arE THERE 24X7..haha
To his dad he smiles even when crying..as if to say
“don’t worry dad..u r my buddy..but now I cry as momma is exercising..
Special care he takes for his dad’s whistle
And never is it wasted without his reaction..

So we know he can hear..he hears
- Airoplane passing over house
- Train passing near the house
- Bike horn in the parking lot
- A bus horn that makes him cry
- Another baby crying makes him laugh
- Puja bell makes him smile again
- Songs of all sorts makes him happy
- Special ones of Jagjit Singh makes him turn around..

He doesn’t like sitting..do not like standing..
He can’t hold, can‘t sit cant walk though so
It’s a painful thing for him…to do..
But he likes to be in arms and sleep in my rocking roll
He hates to be twisted and turned for exercise and he hates the word exercise too..
Though he dosnt understand it..but may be the sound seems similar
He cries from the start till the end..and he cries whole day till next day..
So I cud take pity, and his father by his side..he might miss his exercise..

He gets the sensation of we moving out..
Without him if we go he doesn’t like
All his smiles are gone and his sleep gone too
He cries and whines till…..
Either we don’t go or take him along too..

He is gem and heart to me
Who says managing a special child is tough and hard?
Special child makes my days special..
5 yrs and more now and each day since he came to me
Not a single day I cried for his troubles
He is a king to me and me his servant
I have to serve him so that he is benefited
He is a treasure to me and I cherish him like one

The only time I cry is when I think of his passing away
May that day never comes soon..
And even when it comes..i shud not live a day beyond,
I pray always..he dies before me as no one can understand him as I do….but I die a day after him as ….he cant pass the dark tunnel after death..
I shall go to him to make him pass it..to take him to heaven and to see his smile even there.
I pray always..he dies before me as no one can understand him as I do….but I die a day after him as….i cant live a second without him being near me…


S.Neha…
07/08/2010

Some of My Paintings..

These are some of my Pencil Paintings. I made them last year when I had all the free time in the world and no much work to do. I hope those who come and see these will like my ameteur work on art.
1. The painting here shows a Lady who according to me is an Enchantress..She can have all her desires come true..by the look in her eyes...




2. Lady here belongs to Rajasthan...She is looking long...beyong here eyes can travel and she is waiting for Rain...Hope !!!!!!!





3. Girl here is trapped in a place...in a room..in a house...it can be her own house..She is in need to go..to be free...to live according to her feelings...but she is trapped....!!!





4. This was my first painting...Here some one is forced to follow traditions...by force...hence..The Golden Cage!!!

Posted by Neha Srivastava-Kulshrestha
Accra, Ghana (+ 1 GMT)
06/06/2010.

When are We.....

When are We.....

When are we going to spend our life together,
When are we going to be together forever,
When are u going to say u love me,
When are u going to say u love me,
The only way a women should be loved,
When are u going to say u wanna kiss me....
The only way a women should be kissed....

Life's Vicious,Love's Precious...........

When are we going to spend our life together,
When are we going to be in love forever........
When are we going to dream our dreams together,
When are we going to be in our arms together,
When are we going to count the stars together,
When are we going to spend whole night talking together,
When are we going to cuddle in the night together,
When are we going to get up in the morning together,
When are we going to have a life together...forever....

Life's Precious, Love's Vicious....

When are we going to live our life together,
When are we going to love our life together....I
wanna love u I wanna love u....
The only way a man should be loved....
I wanna kiss u I wanna kiss u I wanna kiss u....
The only way a man should be kissed....

When are u going to be there for me
When are u going to be in love for me forever,
When are u going to see tears in my eyes for u,
When are u going to feel the way I feel for u,
When are u going to say u wanna spend ur life with me forever,
When are u going to be there for me as I am for u......
When are u going to love me as I love u................forever....

Life's Precious,Love's Vicious.....

When are we going to be together forever,
When are we going to be in love forever,
When are u going to love mewhen are u going to love me
The only way a women should be loved........

When are u going to kiss me
When are u going to kiss me
The only way a women should be kissed....

When are we going to spend our life together,
When are we going to call its us,its us and our life together....
When are we going to call WE as ONE.....

When are we going to say our Life's Precious,
When are we going to say our Love's Vicious...........When

When are we going to be together forever,
When are we going to be in love forever,
When are u going to love me
when are u going to love me
The only way a women should be loved........
When are u going to kiss me
When are u going to kiss me
The only way a women should be kissed....

When are we going to spend our life together,
When are we going to call its us,its us and our life together....
When are we going to call WE as ONE.....

When are we going to say our Life's Precious,
When are we going to say our Love's Vicious...........

When are we going to live for us....
When are we going to love each other .............
The only way a man should be loved
The only way a women should be loved....
When are we going to kiss each other....
The only way a man should be kissed
The only way a women should be kissed....
When are we going to spend our life together...

S.Neha....
Ghana, West Africa.
11/6/2009
11:00am(+1 GMT,west africa)

Ur Stare

UR STARE..
Ur stare makes me still,
Ur stare kills me...........
when I look around I see u,
your eyes set on me I dare not see,
When I look down I feel u,
Your gaze set on me I dare not move.........
You have bundle of questions in ur look,
U dont speak u only look,
U have appreciation,
u have compassion,
U have care,
u have passion in that gaze of urs....
U make me wonder why u stare,
U make me wonder who is behind those eyes,
U make me wonder why u dont speak,
U make me wonder why do u have to stare,
U make me wonder who u r ?
U make me wonder why u r ?
wherever I go u follow,
I cud feel u,
I cud see u,
Amongst host of crowd I cud make out wherever you are...
U are still on one place,your gaze moves everywhere.....
U follow me,
U make me still,
Ur Gaze Assasinate Me....
I would like to go stillI would like to b killed for that one stare of yours,
I would be there 100 times,
I would be there for u to capture me in ur eyes,
For that one stare of urs............I would be captive for all my life
Neha-Srivastava-Kulshrestha
Ghana, West Africa.

Life Is You for ME and Me for YOU

Life Is You for ME and Me for YOU...
THE DESTINY MIGHT MAKE US APART,
BUT I HAD ALREADY SET MY HEART...
YOU WILL HAVE ME AS U WANT..
AS WHICH EVER YOU WANT..
WHEN EVER YOU WANT..FOR AS LONG AS YOU WANT..
I WILL NOT QUESTIONI WILL NOT JUDGE..
I WILL NOT OBJECT...TILL...TILL
YOU ARE MINE & I AM YOURS...
THATS A DEAL I MADE WITH ME..
THATS A DEAL I AM GONNA MAKE WITH YOU...
I MAY NEVER TELL YOU..
BUT I AM GOING TO BE THERE FOR YOU...
FOREVER...
YOU MAY NOT NEED ME AT TIMES..
YOU MAY HATE ME AT TIMES...
YOU MAY FORCE ME TO GO AWAY AT TIMES..
YOU DO WHAT EVER..YOU TELL ME WHATEVER..
I WILL NOT DISOBEY ANY OF YOUR WISH...
COZ I HAVE ALREADY SET MY HEART...
COZ I HAVE ALREADY PLEDGED TO BE WHAT U WANT..
COZ I WANNA BE YOUR LIFE AND I WANT YOU TO BE MY LIFE...
LIFE IS STRANGE..
LIFE EXPECTS THINGS WE CANT DREAM..
LIFE MAKES US WE NEVER COULD HAVE BEEN..
LIFE IS YOU FOR ME AND I KNOW LIFE IS ME FOR YOU...
WE WILL BE TOGETHER FOR EVER...
TILL..
DEATH DO US PART...
TODAY WE R TOGETHER IN BODY AND SOUL..
TOMORROW WE MAY BE NOT....
BUT WHERE EVER YOU ARE AND WHERE EVER I MAY BE...
JUST REMEMBER ONE THING THAT...
I HAVE SET MY HEART ON YOU....
I WILL BE WHAT U WANT..
I WILL BE THE WAY YOU WANT..
WITH YOU,
BESIDES YOU,
AWAY FROM YOU....
WHEREVER I MAY BE...
I WILL BE FOR YOU...
MAYBE TOMORROW I MAY NOT BE SANE ENOUGH TO SAY THIS
MAYBE TOMORROW I MAY NOT HAVE WORDS TO EXPRESS THIS..
MAYBE TOMORROW I MAY NOT RECOGNIZE YOU IN PERSON..
BUT ALWAYS REMEMBER THIS..
THAT I TELL YOU TODAY...
I WILL BE YOURS TILL DEATH DO US PART...
MAY NOT BE BODY AND SOUL BE THERE FOR YOU THEN....
BUT MY HEART SHALL HAVE YOUR NAME ENGRAVED...
MAYBE MY MEMORY WILL FADE..
MAY BE MY MIND WILL DIE..
MAY BE I DECLARED INSANE BY MEASURES OF THIS WORLD...
BUT IN SANITY AND IN IN-SANITY,
IN LIFE AND IN DEATH....
YOU JUST REMEMBER THAT..
I WAS YOURS...
I WAS YOURS TODAY AND FOREVER...
AS I HAVE ALREADY SET MY HEART...
TILL DEATH DO US PART..
LIFE WILL BE YOU FOR ME AND ME FOR YOU...
LOVE U.Neha S.22/7/09.7:54pm(+1GMT(west africa time zone)